This whole week sucks for mi...

I hate going to work.. it seems that for this week.. the managers are all in their pms moods.. and all of us got scolding for no freakin reason.. ya.. i admit most of us are slacking away.. but its u ppl who didnt gave us anything to do.. why? cos u guys just dont trust others but urself..

n when things arent going ur way.. u all start to throw tanthrums saying why arent we all not helping.. why are all of us doing our own stuffs.. its a team effort.. so it cannot be accomplished by just a few persons..

I am damn pissed off.. i shoot back at her... i know i shouldnt do tt.. but its damn unreasonable.. and when i shoot back.. she has nth to say.. why? cos she herself knows it isnt our fault.. she just wans to push the blame to us cos she has nothing to show the boss..

n shall i say that u guys are so damn inefficient.. just a few documents takes days n weeks to vent thru? just a few documents takes days to write?

what did they do? they throw everything at mi.. y? cos i am the onli one who is better in writing both english and chinese.. I am not a translator lo.. if u wan a translator.. go hire one.. can u imagine how difficult is it to translate chinese chemical terms into english.. u guys are manager lo.. so managers are supposed to know it all isnt it? if u all cant even do this.. wat makes u all think i can?

I am damn fucking pissed off.. but i stil manage to complete them.. i finish all the documents within 2 days.. mind u.. its 2 days onli... n they can give mi the excuse that as managers they have alot of other impt things to settle.. ya.. impt things like e-shopping? playing msn? how impt is tt ! yet, they say all these documents are impt cos its for the gmp.. shit u ppl.. if its so urgent, why arent u guys putting everything down to do it..

after i done the documents, they just cleverly took it to present to the boss.. n if there is any error.. they would say it is kaixin who did it.. fine.. if the big boss is to come look for mi.. i will make sure all of ur deeds get published out man.. ji dan lo..

so mani irritating n hypocrite people present in this company.. n now my whole production manager wans to quit.. n christie wans to quit too.. grrrr....

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other than working n working.. i am stil worried about him.. i went shopping wif charlene.. n spent a bomb man.. i tok to ronghua n wee... but i stil feel veri lost.. its like some impt part of my life is suddenly gone..

i have to admit i wasnt in my right mood this whole week.. tears could find mi at any odd timing.. even when i am super busy wif work.. they just come.. n i know charmaine is experiencing the same thing as mi.. i cant be there for her..

but i am happy that she contacted mi when she was facing problems wif pax.. so both of us ended up crying while toking abt our situation..
girl.. i hope u solve things as soon as possible k.. i am not going to advise u on wat to do.. i know u urself know wats best for u.. so if u have made up ur mind.. stick to ur decision.. i will always support u de.. =)

ytd i tok to him.. i picked up alot of courage to just pm him.. and i finalli know wat he is facing.. i wanna help him.. i wanna be there for him.. but i dont know how.. cos i dont know wat are we now.. i am veri lost.. nevertheless, i was feeling veri happy when i went to bed last night.. n yes.. i slept soundly thru the night....